Why is this happening to me? What am I going to do now?
Have you ever been there? Have you ever asked yourself any of these questions?
We are all born blind according to the scriptures. We come into this world deceived about God, ourselves and why we’re here. The enemy, the very one who blinded us, wants us to live as though we have it all together and aren’t in need of anyone. In a word “independence” is his game which is the big lie. Thankfully, the truth is available, but the bad news is most aren’t willing to receive it until it is their last option.
Raise your hand if you woke up one morning and thought “I feel great today, I think I’ll hand the reigns of my life over to Jesus.” I would venture to say none of us have ever done that. On the contrary it is only after our world collapses that we cry out for God.
Although we are all brought into this world spiritually blind, thank God there is light. For God, who said, “Light shall shine out of darkness,” is the One who has shone in our hearts to give the Light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.” Did you notice it said, “out of darkness” rather than into darkness? God has a way of bringing light, not only into the equation, but even out of it. God is omnipresent, and even though we may not see him in our confusion, blindness and denial he is there. Not only is he present his plan actually involves all of the things that have brought us so much grief. Without the darkness we could never understand or appreciate the light, right? I mean as long as things are seemingly going our way we would never cry out for Jesus would we? So, is it totally off base to think God may just be orchestrating all of these things?
The more I study the Word, and see how God works in others, I understand more and more how blind most of us really are. We have bought into the lie that God is here to make us comfortable, and settled in this world, when in fact this world is really only preparation for another. All of what goes on in the temporal is so we might discover what it means to walk in the Spirit. While the upheaval and shaking isn’t pleasant it is to awaken us to what God is up to.
God is love and love is always for others. We are instructed to “Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for you own personal interests, but also for the interests of others.” You see as long as we are stuck in self-for-self mode we are in darkness thinking everything is about me, my needs and what I want. When things don’t seem to be going our way the frustration, disappointment, envy, jealousy etc. that result from living a blind, selfish and deceived life move us to cry out for deliverance. Although this may not be the prettiest, or most comfortable, way it does seem to be the only way that works for us.
The Apostle Paul replayed for us how the light came to him in Romans seven telling us, “For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate…” You see we all come to the truth the same way and that’s by being beaten up by the lie first. Paul had to try and try to make himself what he thought God wanted until the reality of his inability finally came home to him. Once he was truly tired of living under the delusion of being independent he cried out “Who will deliver me?”
The first chapter of 2 Corinthians explains a little more. After Paul told the Corinthians of how much he had suffered, on their behalf, and how it is all for them, he tells them why. He said, “We do not want you to be unaware brethren, of our affliction which came to us in Asia, that we were burdened excessively, beyond our strength, so that we despaired even of life; indeed, we had the sentence of death within ourselves so that we would not trust in ourselves, but in God who raises the dead…” Bang! There it is! All of our troubles and trials are specifically designed so we might LEARN TO NOT TRUST IN OURSELVES! Once we begin to trust in God rather than ourselves we start to see how everything we have been through really is for others.
We no longer ask “why is this happening to me?” We ask “How is this for others?” “What am I going to do now?” is replaced with “God, what are you up to?” We begin to see ourselves in a completely new way and start to understand everything in our life is ingredients for God to cook up something great for someone else.