She didn’t think she was pretty; she didn’t want him to look at her. She felt like she didn’t take good enough care of herself. She didn’t see herself as beautiful at all. She would hide herself in the lattice of the garden when she caught him looking at her. He kept telling her how lovely she is, but she didn’t believe him. She kept near though because she was drawn in by his love. He would tell her every day until she was convinced of his desire and the totality of his devotion to her. She starts to see herself as her lover sees her and begins to love him back with the love he bestows on her. Just before she reaches out to him to proclaim her undying love to him, he turned away and had gone. Now, her heart goes out to him and searches for him but can not find him. Horrible things happen to her on her journey to find him, she gets beaten up and left for dead, and they take her coat from her. All she wants to do after this is to find her beloved. What is it that she will tell him, when he returns, will he still see her beauty after all the bruises and slashes on her body? When he returns, she asks him to turn his eyes from her, but he can’t. She is perfect, pure, blessed, awesome, and she belongs to him. Come back he calls after her, he never gets weary of looking at her. She is drawn to him by his persistence and love. They get married and are united in love. They say to each other, “For love is as strong as death, Jealousy is as severe as Sheol; its flashes are flashes of fire, the very flame of the Lord. Many waters cannot quench love, nor will rivers overflow it. If a man were to give all the riches of his house for love, it would be utterly despised.” This was taken from the Song of Solomon.
The King went away and He is coming back some day. He is in love with us, and He is our groom.
This story reminds me so much of my relationship with Louie. He chased me for many years until I was convinced that his love was real. He never gave up on me, even when I treated him unfairly. While we were divorced he continued to stick up for me and believe in me. The only other love I have felt like this before is Jesus Christ, and I know now that Louie loves me with Christ’s love. It literally humbles me by knowing how much Jesus loves us and the lengths He has and is going to for us to see ourselves like He sees us. I am a believer and no matter what trials, beatings, or delays, I will wait on the Lord. He is my lover; He is my all in all.
I closed my talk to the ladies in jail tonight with a letter Louie wrote me long ago. He was telling me how much he loved me and said, “I want you to be happy; all you can do is follow your heart. I just wish it led to me.” He signed it, I’ll love you forever. Jesus also writes us a love letter and it’s called the Bible. Throughout its pages He expresses His undying love for us and tells us–He doesn’t want one person to perish without Him.
Because of the message tonight, Princess wanted to talk afterwards. She was telling me of how much Jesus has changed her since she has been in jail. She said the old her would act totally different than how she is acting now. Then she said, “I learned stuff from that girl I can’t stand.” She knows it is the Lord that has changed her. She has been reading her Bible a lot and the girls in the cell have noticed it. She said she never thought she would be that girl, but she loves it because she is helping others by just doing what she wants to do.
Before I talked to Princess, I met with a girl from out of state. She was bold about her faith and wanted to ask some questions about the Bible. She says she holds Bible study every morning in the cell and really enjoys it. We talked about a lot of things but mostly just read some scripture and talked about the service with Rhema Word tonight. She is a joy to listen to and I am encouraged by her faith in Jesus.
Written by Tracey