You have heard the saying, “if you love someone, set them free and if they come back, it was meant to be.” It’s hard to let go of someone when you love them, isn’t it. We think that without us, they will never make it. The truth is, hold on loosely but don’t let go. One example of this could be our children, we raise them up in love, wisdom and common sense in hopes when they are older, they will reap the benefits. That is how I feel with the ladies in jail; they are like my children whom I love so much. I never know if they are listening to the Lord each week as the gospel is presented to them. I hope and pray they are receiving the revelation God offers. I know I can’t be there when they get out. I also know I can’t be there every morning for their Bible reading, but I do know the Holy Spirit is there in them, if they are born again then it’s the Holy Spirit’s job to keep them.
My heart aches as I share the word with them in jail tonight because there is a lady here whom I have invited to Bible study. She came to Sunday school a couple of times with her children, but mostly, she didn’t follow through with what the Lord was telling her. I remember her telling me how the Lord spoke to her and she was changed from the inside. Things were different and she wanted to live her life for God. Months later she is sitting in jail looking at six months. It’s hard not to get discouraged, but also to see this as the way God is getting her attention because He loves her. We give our children disciple when they need it and if we belong to God, He does the same for us. I did get an opportunity to talk with her tonight; we had the chance to talk and to pray. I know God is working through some things with her but most of all; He wants her to know He loves her too much for her to stay in her sin. Jesus came to set us free from sin.
There were several ladies who wanted to talk, one of my notes said, “SOS, please come get me, please.” Another note said, “Tracey: I have a lot going on I need to talk to you seriously, bad!” These notes may have my name on them, but they are calling out to Jesus and He is hearing them. That is just another reason why I don’t leave the jail till after midnight some nights. Somehow, God sustains me through the work day on Friday’s, Hallelujah!
I read to them the whole chapter of John 17. It made me cry in the middle of it so I asked Tammy Strader to finish for me. This is the passage where Jesus is praying to the Father about His disciples and how he longs for them to be one, like Jesus and the Father are one. He says in verse 11, “I am no longer in the world, and yet they themselves are in the world and I come to you, Holy Father, keep them in your name, the name which you have given me that they may be one even as we are.” Verse 12 continues, “While I was with them, I was keeping them in your name.”
The lady I call, Bucky impressed me when we talked because she is feeling convicted of some wrong doing. She said it used to never bother her before, to not be honest about money, but now, for some reason, it bothers her. We prayed about her situation and she assured me, she did not want to continue to feel this way because it is keeping her from reading the Bible and spending time with Jesus. I thought it was great because Jesus is keeping her and she knows it.
One out of three Rhema word ladies came tonight. Tammy Strader and I had a good time listening to the inmates talk about Sarah, Hagar, Ishmael, and Isaac in Genesis. There was good discussion and many insights into the Word of God and how much fun that can be. I enjoy our time together every chance we get. It was after midnight when Tammy and I left, but I just love it because I know it’s not my effort to keep myself, but God who is the Keeper.
Written by Tracey