When I use to use drugs I never realized what was really going on. I mean, why did I want to be high? When I first started getting high I think it was simply a curiosity and it felt good; no more and no less. As the years passed, and I became addicted; it turned into something different. It was no longer about curiosity or feeling good it became simply about feeling normal.
For anyone who hasn’t been addicted to substances let me just say eventually the substance becomes needed in order to just feel normal. It stops being fun and it stops getting you high but without it you become sick. This is why it is so difficult to break out of the cycle of addiction. As much as an addict wants to stop he can’t because the excruciating discomfort associated with withdrawal seems too much to bear. Of course the answer, at least in the short term, is to do more of the substance; so it creates a vicious, turbulent cycle of trying and failing, trying and failing, until it seems hopeless. This hopelessness can turn out to be the best thing to happen because it may be the very thing that finally drives some to seek help. After all, when someone isn’t quite done from the trying they will somehow find more energy to give it a good try again, right?
Over the last several years I have come to understand that drugs and alcohol really are not the problem but rather a symptom of a deeper problem. It is a way of coping with feelings that life throws at you. It takes the edge off of the reality of existence. I think there was something deep inside of me that knew our lives are being lived on a very thin ledge. As a lost man if you stop very long and see how fragile life really is you will become frightened and immobilized; so rather than do that you just continue in the distracting behavior until something forces you to stop.
For some it takes a funeral to shake them enough to awaken them. While no one likes to lose loved ones sometimes that is the only way we are jolted enough to think about our temporal state. The big question then is what happens after you die? We are suddenly interested in something other than what’s going on right here and now.
So you see those things in life that, on the front end, seem so horrible may be exactly what we need to jolt us from our zombie like state of existence. You know what I’m talking about the repetitive nature of everyday life. It’s those things you do everyday without fail to the point that it lulls us off to sleep. You get up, take a shower, go to work, come home, eat dinner, watch a little T.V., go to bed and start all over again tomorrow. Is that really all we were created for? Is this why we were created in God’s image? I say no! We are here to shine the light of the glory of God so others will see and be changed from their drab, monotonous existence to one that bears fruit for their creator.
My prayer is that as we travel along in life we don’t get too distracted by the temporal things. I hope we can learn to see through the visible to the invisible and start to reevaluate our priorities in light of eternity. Please take a moment to think about what is most important to you. What do you place value in? Jesus said it like this “Store up for yourselves treasure in heaven…not on the earth where it will rust, break, get stolen etc… Seek you first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things will be added to you.” C.S. Lewis once said, “Aim at heaven and you will get earth thrown in. Aim at earth and you get neither.”
Written by Louie