Jail was great this week and I want to tell you why. The subject matter I talked about was depending on God like a little child depends on its parent. The child will play and run around while the parent may be in a frantic mess because he just trusts his parent to do “grown-up things.” Proverbs 3:5-7 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him.” I read an article where Oprah Winfrey was asking T. D. Jakes if he thought being gay was a sin. Listen to his answer; “I think that sex between 2 people of the same sex is condemned in the scripture and as long as it is condemned in the scripture, I don’t get to say what I think, I get to say what the Bible says.”
How many times have we given our own opinion or how we see things? Jesus says in John 14 that He doesn’t do anything on his own initiative. When we begin to reason things out, it puts us into a wide gamut of space where the devil pulls us into a way of thinking that doesn’t belong to us. In other words, the devil entices us and draws us away from the attention of the Word, which is Jesus. Our focus is always on the Father. Jesus said, not my will, but your will be done. When we depend on God we become as a little child not having to know all the answers but to trust fully on Him and that is where true freedom is found.
So this week in jail the Rhema Word ladies came to share. Sha Jackson fractured her foot and ankle a couple of months ago and is now able to be back with us. She talked about a lot of different things I couldn’t possibly write here, but I will tell you about the young lady sitting in the front row. As Sha was speaking about forgiveness, the young lady spoke out to say she has not forgiven someone in her life for 15 years, and then the tear fell from her face. Our hearts went out to her, but time was short and we needed to leave the room. As the young lady hugged me at the door, she said she wanted to talk to me; I told her to “write me a note,” and she did.
Later in the law box she wanted to talk about the Unforgiveness, but I wanted to talk about salvation. Instantly she admitted she was not saved. Now we knew where and how to start.
Her story is a brutal one; she told me she was forced to watch as two men killed her mother, who was her best friend. The men then turned their attention on her and raped her; as a result she got pregnant and later aborted the baby. She is reluctant to tell the last part of the story because she feels God will not forgive her. As we searched to uncover who God and Jesus really are, her heart began to open up an understanding that wasn’t her own. She said she never saw Jesus like that before, the kind of Jesus that took a beating so severe He should have died before getting to Mount Calvary. This shows us how serious He took our sin, and enabled him to forgive every one of them even before they were committed. “Every one of them?” she asked. Yes, every last one, even the ones we haven’t done yet. That’s how much He loves us. It’s all about what Jesus did and is doing, it’s not about us, it involves us, but it’s about the Lord.
We talked about how we would commit any and all sin, if Jesus wasn’t keeping us and we thanked Jesus that He is keeping us. Her eyes got real big and she said; “That’s a good way to look at it.” I could tell God is doing something supernatural in her life. When we ended in prayer I asked her if she wanted to pray, she did not hesitate. “Thank you, Jesus for your amazing love. Thank you for your amazing ways, thank you for your amazing love.” She said it so sweetly and with such heart, I felt like not praying and just letting those words stay in the room.
In conclusion, I am blown away at how we have become so blinded to the fact that it is all about Jesus. We can trust him for who he is and what he does. I just want to tell others about Jesus and His amazing love. It’s by the goodness of God that men come to repentance.
Written by Tracey Lewis