It was after midnight when Mrs. Zander and I left the jail; I was tired and looking forward to sleep. I have seen more tears in the last couple hours than I have in a while. Jesus has a way of letting us know we are powerless in our own strength. Our will is about the only thing we own, everything else belongs to God; the breath we breathe, the beating of our heart and the love we give. I heard 3 girls say that they can’t do it anymore; I shook my head and said, “If we could do it, we wouldn’t need Jesus.”
During the service Mrs. Zander said to me, “you’re next after this song.” When she said that my heart started racing, and I began to think “what if I don’t say the right thing, what if it comes out wrong or I don’t say everything God wants me to say.” But then I heard God say, “I’ve got this my child; let me tell them through you.” Unforgiveness is the catalyst to why they can’t start over. When we think of starting a new year, we think of starting over, getting a better shot or doing stuff different. So I showed them an illustration of how holding on to Unforgiveness keeps our hands full, and we are not able to receive the other things God has for us; like love, joy, and peace. If we are born again we have those things, but we don’t exercise and enjoy them, because we are holding on to the thing that is destroying us. In Matt. 18:21-35 we read of a master who forgives the dept of a slave. It says “the Lord of that servant was moved with compassion, loosed him, and forgave him the dept.” The servant was already forgiven and he didn’t have to pay it back and his family was saved as well. This is not talking about salvation; it’s talking about dept. Read the story for yourself, my point here is that Jesus forgave the dept we owed so we could go free. The example is that we forgive others with the forgiveness that was given to us. It’s not our forgiveness to keep, but to give away to others. Ephesians 4:32 says even as God for Christ’s sake has forgiven you. See how that works?
The other point that I wanted to make was about how Jesus said, “If you don’t forgive others, your Father in heaven will not forgive you.” We need to understand that when Jesus said this, He was under the law. He also said “if your eye offends you, pluck it out.” What about when He said, “if your right hand makes you stumble, cut it off and throw it from you; for it is better for you to lose one of the parts of your body, than for your whole body to go into hell?” The new covenant started with the death of Jesus on the cross. He took our sin (dept) and gave us His justification, forgiveness and righteousness. So how many of our sins are forgiven? Did you say ALL? What I am saying is when God shows us our sin; we agree with Him and confess them to Him. I thank you, Lord that it is finished, and there is no more for us to do. If we could do something to make it right or if I could give these ladies the answer to all their problems, we wouldn’t need Jesus. The truth is, He is all we have and He is all we need.
The 3 ladies I prayed with tonight were told that we need Jesus and He loves us better than we love our own children. Having children are like a picture of how much Jesus loves us, but beyond what we could even imagine. The way we can start a new year is to cry out to Jesus and let Him be God in our life. It’s not about us at all; it’s about Jesus and His ability to work in us His good plan. He orchestrates the heavenlies to get us where He needs us to be so that He can be glorified in our mistakes and failures. It’s not about our behavior, but about His love for us.
Written by Tracey